What I learned so far leading into my 30’s is my path will never align with society’s norms. For example it took some people four years to finish college while it took me six years, yikes. Everyones path is different and when it came to learning, it took me longer than usual. But that extra time helped me build a foundation no degree could ever teach. When I graduated high school, I had to take remedial classes two grades below college level, that was embarrassing. So I had to take extra math, reading, and english classes before hitting college level classes, which is why I was two years behind. But it was worth it because I took the time to really learn and school actually became fun. Some kids in the same boat as me dropped out. But I stayed, and took those extra two years to catch up. This was the second time in my life I showed persistence and resilience which is what every successful person has. This lesson taught me that no matter what, my path will always be different from what people expect me to be at. Its fun being different.

Storms wont last always . ⛈

The beginning of the year was not going well for me at all, self doubt came in and ruled my life. But I continue to push through and through that, blessings started to overflow. I don’t know who needs to hear this but continue to believe in yourself even through the hard times because there is a such thing as constant happiness, love, and satisfaction.

I didn’t believe this at first especially when I became a full time content creator. I thought life was suppose to be forever hard, stressful and mentally draining. But it’s temporary especially when you are in alignment with your purpose and your faith in God. Trusting in God is really hard, especially when what you put out in the world is not returning when you want it to. That was my problem, expecting my hard work to be rewarded. What I truly need to focus on, is perfecting my craft and serving what God wants me to do.

I was depressed for 11 months, yes there was happy times during those months but it would quickly dwindle away when the night came. I would question my purpose a lot because of these feelings. Even though I doubted myself, one thing I never did was quit and there were times I really wanted to (thats that persistence and resilience showing up for the third time). I would constantly pray, read positive comments from subscribers but nothing was working for me during those dark months. Once I started really focusing on my health by working out, going to church, journaling and truly focusing on hanging out with love ones, it inspired me to film my day and life. My day to day activities is what boosted my social medias to get me opportunities I have today.

Now let’s talk about these opportunities. During my depression state I felt in my heart that in order to feel fulfilled and walking in my purpose I need to work for a company and create content for them. Funny thing is I started to research a brand that I love so I can direct message them on instagram. The very first brand I reached out too was a black owned brand I dreamed of working. I first did my research to see what I can do to help their company grow through creating content and then I direct messaged the CEO and he was already following me, I was so shook ! I knew that was God guiding me. So I messaged him and we ended up getting on a call to talk about what I can do for the brand, he loved me and hired me. I of course had to pitch myself and made a dope presentation for him which solidified the job.